College Again

Somehow, I found college is not so exciting like school..erhmm not as if I can't really find my type of friends here but the this college life is so tiring..classes are from 8- 5 almost everyday..and that is so tiring..once I come back home also 6 something d..then dinner..almost 8 something d..tak mungkin I'm gonna go study again..so damn tiring..I online also nowdays is limited time liao..then my sleep is about 5-6 hours per day ni..sungguh malang sekali..

Then comes the so called friends in college..nice people to mix around..okies I do mix with them outside classes but not during classes..cause they will be studying the entire time in class..and I prefer to day dream and the best is sleep..I mean for the first few weeks..haha cause the class r quite boring and thanks to my SPM teacher who taught more than enough..kept my brain running so I tend to get so bored during lectures..haiz..

Then come staying in Penang..it is not bad afterall..I can go out anytime (even until late night) as long I inform someone in the house..haha...then I got car to travel around..free gym membership and lots more..so it is not bad afterall..but then thing I had about Penang is..U call it food paradise..but I can't hardly good food during lunch break..and the food is damn expensive...like my first day go out eat..I bought the food..then the man said 3.60 so I wanted to pay up..then the his wife was like aiya empat linggit lar..n I went WAT????? then gud thing her husband said 3.60 back..if not I would stick the rice on her face..ish...stupid island people..(I'm from mainland k)..haha..

Then the whole week was like that..puff..and so many thing happening around and bla bla..but then I miss her the most..everynite I think / dream about her..and the funny thing was I dream about her turning into some house maid..
WTF>.< my brain must be so damn tired that the tayangan all not in order..yor allah..

I hit the gym on thursday..and now I feel the pain..cannot move my arms also..sighs..need to buff up..jia you..haha..


till then..mwaxx
p/s- i love you
*this post is suppose to be emoing around but then I'm hyper in sadness now..sighs

First Day Of College

I am like WTF now..see it is my first day of college..WTF again..sorry it is that bad..duh..So it was like yesterday ni I prepare for the damn college thing..Around 11.30 a.m. I am suppose to shift to penang and I only start packing at 10 something, this actually shows how "excited" am I for college..lols..then yesterday was like bla bla ni until night..my parents was super duper sad to leave me in Penang..lols..that was the first time my dad looked so sad..*mengharukan* but then staying is not really bad for the first day kut..except for food..kinda hard to eat at home and I'm extra lazy to go out and eat..so practically I think by the time I finish my college here I'm gonna loose about 30 KG d..and the remaining would be around 17KG of Irwin ni..yor allah..so lets see what happened the first day..

Woke up at 7.45 a.m. but decided to close my eyes for 5 mins but then it shoot up to 8 something d..so sighs..rushing again..bathe, brush, and bla bla already 8.40 d..the my mission is not to miss breakfast so eat breakfast until 8.50 like that d..but I reached college at 8.55 a.m. I made record by going early for college, but then you know lar Malaysians. They were suppose to start at 9 but then they only started at 9.30 or more..haha..I was like so bored in the class..good thing fishy came and sit beside me..then I found a new cool retard friend which I don't even know what is his name..but he looks handsome and cool..*i mean it* but he smokes..so girls any1 wanna know him, don't ask me cause I don't know his name..haha..I call him my retard friend cause he was alone in the whole class..so do we..muahaha..after all the boring introduction to the library, computer lab and other shit..it was finally time for lunch...so I and fishy met Ash..she just came out from her test or something. Then we met others also like Teegena and her friends whose name I can't recall..then Ash's friend named Gloria or Glory or something lar..then got meet Satish and GUESS WHO I saw today in Disted..it is Vishnu Kumar..yor allah..I and fishy was like err...dot dot dot..

After that got watever taklimat all..I was extra bored there..so my class is gonna start tomorrow..*can't wait* (assume it is the joke of the day)..today the orientation suppose to end at 3 but then end at 2 pula..so I called my mum and ask whether I can go back home not..since she miss me so much then she also say come lar come lar..adui..then I went back to my gparents place then change pants and stuff then I drive to that ferry terminal..WTF no place to park..then got place must pay parking..since I very kedukut 1 person I go park the car in the church..and that is so fcuking far from the ferry terminal is like from St.Xavier to ferry terminal..fcuk..nvm I walked and took the ferry..and fcuk I got sea sick so bad..I got headache d..then reach the other end, my mum come fetch me then go home..pack pack the left over things and go help my mum buy drinking water and fetch ppl..so farking tired man..is like no rest at all..then after finish all, my dad sent me back to the ferry terminal at 6..then take ferry come back lor..then on the way that celebrity fitness ppl keep on calling go there..so I straight drive go there..

39th entry

So I reached my 39th post..*yay*, but then I'm not in the mood of celebrating it. Don't ask me why. Can cry until banjir. Okies, it is not as serious as you think.duh. Things don't come easy as we really wish. They come with pain, suffer and little bit of tears and duh not forgetting emo. So practically we all wish for things to get, to come true and bla bla. Tell me more about your dream come through so easily like cinderella or snow white? or maybe shrek? haha.. keep on dreaming. Looking back, I didn't really get what I actually wished for.. Let's see I wish for 11 A1s, instead I got 10 As? duh.. I wish I was given a scholarship?? duh again..Good thing at least I can get the merit scholarship..And let's see what more I asked? Well it is my dirty little secret.


So as you can see, what we dream is different from what we actually get..I'm not blaming God for make things go hard and wild, but then my question is why do we get what we want but in a small version? or sometimes something different but it has the same value or importance with the things we wish for. (You have to do some reflection of yourself and God rite). Okie fine..I'm not here to debate about God. I don't get to religious cause I have my personal belief, even I'm a christian and goes to church almost all sundays except for some Sundays which I keep aside for my evil-doings..duh..okie cut the crap..I don't even know why am I writing this post.

The truth is I really don't know that whether you can accept me or not..(obviously I'm refering to someone here)..lols..I know you know that I like you, but then you are not giving me any respons? That is making me go crazy..well I don't expect you to suddenly come and scare me by saying all those loving words..but then I think there should be at least some positive or negative feedback rite..I don't mind if you give me negative feedback but then say something..please? I really wanna bring you out but then..always get rejected for some reasonable reasons or maybe you are just making it up? I really don't know..swts..I have waited for a year and maybe more. I think its finally time to make some decision. Or should I wait somemore..Many are asking me to move on..but then I insist on moving on with other girls cause I know what I really want, and what I really want is you. So I shall just waited for your answer? I dunno..Let God and time decide..but you somehow have to say something..Waiting..

till then, waiting
mwaxx

Malaysian?? Duh

I fcuking hate bumiputera Malaysians..u know why? cause they can turn you off..duh..this morning I was suppose to pay the electricity bill and the astro bill in the post office. So the time I went there was about 11 something. Since I got no car to travel around, so I decided to cycle there. Somehow, I do care about environment. So cut the story short, the time I went there got alot of people waiting but then there was only 2 counter operating when there was about 5 staffs. Only 3 were kinda working, while the other 2, I don't know what the heck they were doing. So my number was 1128, or something like that. So came my turn, but then the guy before me, he accidentally went to my counter. So the stupid lady go press the next number, and fcuk I was counter-less..damn it..so I go stand near the counter so they could "layan" me. While I was waiting near the counter, that lazy staff ask me"kamu berdiri sini buat apa? nombor apa kamu?". To be fcuking polite to her, I just answered "nombor saya 1128, tapi saya datang tak ada kaunter kosong pun, sekarang 1129 pula.." fcuk my malay..like was so professional SPM's bahasa Malaysia.. let her stare at me like shit ni. Then, that working staff "layan" the other customer d, she fcuking din't entertain me, instead she stare at me and nodd her head in a strange way ordering me to go to her like a dog like tat..WTF..I go give the bill and explain to her what to pay and stuff and again fcuking moment, she didn't tell me how much to pay. I waited awhile for her to tell how much but she din't, then I gave up and just paid the money. Since I paid her with 50 ringgit notes,it is their rules or something to put the notes in the machine to see whether it is fake or not. After she put that notes in the machine, and of course it is proven ori, what she did really pissed me off, she did her own manual checking as if her eyes is better than that machine like scanner ni, she was like keep on flipping that money over and over again. Then she took out the other notes from the drawer and started counting it 1 by 1. That fcuking lady really got me pissed off. She was not even giving me back the change which is suppose to be 20 something ni, instead she start counting all the 50 ringgit note in the drawer. WTF..public sector worker like that 1 ar..fcuk..after taking her own time, she gave the change and the receipt, and fcuk her really bad, she didn't say anything and the way she gave back the change and receipt was like throwing food to stray dog like that. WTF..then she keep on counting the fcuking notes again..

The bad thing I did was when I leave that counter, I kinda curse her, hope she losses at least 500 ringgit from her drawer so she need to replace it with her own money. WTF is wrong with this woman..having PMS or wat.. So practically she spoilt my mood for the whole day..Thanks to her I lost mood wanna go cut hair..Suppose to go cut hair after paying the bills but then no mood d lar..go back and online lagi WTF..so many not online..i forgot today got school..lols..my bad..so the whole day didn't do anything d..

so many things left undone..

need to
1) buy clothes
2) go take ATM card
3) go cut hair
4) pack up my stuff
5) fill in my scholarship form
6) use my 1 week to the fullest..

LIFE nowdays is so WTF...

anyways, cutting that crap..

I hit the gym yesterday with my cousin..even he is such a noob case in my world..good thing he gave me free membership for the gym. That gym also not bad lar cause got steam bath all..so I save my money which I was suppose to use for celebrity fitness..lols..save 90 bucks per month..can use that money to buy clothes..So basically my things in Penang kinda settle already, but then again I really don't know I should go or not. Every night I keep on thinking about the same thing ni..Haiz..Anyways I stay in my gparents house also got problem k..

1) no extra bathing time..
2) no freedom on the net..limited time and got people look at me all the time..scare I watch porn isit?? noob case ppl
3) limited tv time
4) food is so duh..but then shouldn't have any problem cause I got car to go out and eat or I could just walk to the food court..
5) friends..it is so sigh case..for now is like i got very few friends in penang island..for the first week..I can go find fishy or rachel ni..rachel said.."Give me a beep anytime"...haha very funny..but then not same college also..duh
6) moneyless...I need to find any part time job near Gurney there k..any1 can intro me?? kesian me k..no money d..price all increase like nobody's business like that..

Hmm.. I miss the voice and real face (I can see the photo lar), I feel like talking but then erhmm..I don't think it will happen..lols..just want you to know I'm extra sincere here..although I might be creepy or overwhelming at times..is just because I'm afraid of the situation..hope you can understand..haiz..I got no words to describe my feeling whenever I think about this..feel like laughing?? crying?? shouting out loud?? I really don't know

anyways I think I'm done blogging today..

till then,
mwaxx

p/s- I love you. >.<

Boring

Okies, I'm back here for the sack of updating it with something..Let me see..*thinking and few bangs on the wall*, I've got nothing interesting now, sad case..but then I sense that love is in the air..muahaha..okie u guys must be wondering why??

OKie..expectations are high, but It's not my call yet for the love bell..haha

Recently, I found that the devil of my own version is getting her love life blooming again, lols..the guy is Mr.D..he is kinda handsome looking too..not like the devil..anyways good luck, remember my advice about protection and pregnancy..don't act the way ur mum did to anyone else..they might die cause of heart attack..lols..gud luck, my dear devil..muahaha...

Somemore who was kinda falling in love ar..I also dunno lei..I not CNN or BBC world k..anyway, mine sucks a big time, no comments as I suck a big time too..skipping that,

Tomorrow is outing day, I tell you ppl..the outing is painful to arrange until I can cry d..but then I'm looking for a great time with them..who them?? I also dunno..can confirm 1 is me, mc, vimal, mok, sya..then I dunno d...sorrie..

I'm kinda doing my prep to pindah to Penang d..but then sometimes I really wanna go form 6 because of..erhmm..I also dunno..I just have my second heart here..Is it too late to change as I already register for the college??..I really dunno leh...*hope God helps me*

Erhmm, I dunno wat to say d..wait till the next post lor..

till then, sayonara..

mwaxx

It's Happening Again

Yeah, it is happening again, but then this time, the impact is kinda hard on me. Is not that I'm not strong to accept what is going to happen. But is just happens rite, rejection after rejection. Staying strong and keep the sprits high is the only hope..muahaha..haiz..no mood to write d..

How bout a round of applause?

Standin ovation...

Ooooh

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now

Standin' outside my house

Tryin' to apologize

You're so ugly when you cry (Please)

Just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not

Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show

You really had me goin'

But now it's time to go

Curtains finally closin'

That was quite a show

Very entertainin'

But it's over now

Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (You better hurry up)

Before the sprinklers come on

Talkin' bout "Girl, I love you you're the one..."

This just looks like a re-run (Please)

What else is on?

And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not

Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show

You really had me goin'

But now it's time to go

Curtains finally closin'

That was quite a show

Very entertainin'

But it's over now

Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you

For makin' me believe

That you could be

Faithful to me

Let's hear your speech oh...

How bout a round of applause?

Standin' ovation...

But you put on quite a show

You really had me goin'

But now it's time to go

Curtains finally closin'

That was quite a show

Very entertainin'

But it's over now

Go on and take a bow

ut it's over now...

Way Back Into Love

lalala...the title has got nothing to do with my post here..just an expression kut..anyways..I cried cried and cried more puas then ever for past two days..I'm so gonna be okie...(think so). Passionate De Musique was few days ago, but then I din't really write a review about it. I'm so gonna fcuk alot in this post..

1) I enjoyed the concert to the fullest..cause I practically work the concert out with my fellow slaves Dev and CY vernn..
2) The hall was only about 1/4 full with audience..sungguh saddening case but then fuck you HIGH SCHOOL PPL..dun support ur own school..this goes especially to the FCUKING PENGETUA, PK'S AND LAZY TEACHERS...FCUK U ALL UPSIDE DOWN...thanks..
3) The music was ok ok nia..the rehersal in school was better..
4) The entire performance, I got no comment since I was busy running back stage..
5) Emcee..I'm really sorry to say..U SUCK A BIG TIME..
6) I din't get to sit and enjoy the performance as what I planned..sighs
7) Overall = avarage nia (survey done by me on most of the audience present there)
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okie, that part is done, next comes to my part. I'm kinda addicted to the song " Way Back Into Love" saw from someone's profile..somemore in youtube format..lols.
Talking about my personal stuff is not an option in this blog..save it gossip readers.
Recently I drove alot and went under hot sun so so much..and this cause my hands, legs and face to be over baked/ tanned..My hands and body look like chess board ni..geramnya..gonna stay indoor until the sun burn hilang at least 50%.. and since busy running around, I kinda miss meals at various time so I kinda lost weight about 0.6 kg..and fcuking, it is such a big deal for me since I'm suppose to gain weight..milk protein is kinda helping abit..no noticeable results until now...just wait lor..

I NEED TO BUFF

saturday leh, I went to Sunway, walk there again and again..go few shop wanna buy pants..but then the price was so blood sucking..that fucking cargo pants cost about 299.99 after discount, I was like wat??? I can buy 2 cargo pants in Jusco k..kesian me, telah menjadi sangat miskin d..can't really afford so expensive clothes..at last I lost my mood to buy clothes and finally din't buy anything d..went to body shop..so packed since it was Saturday..din buy things there also..(gud thing also, I can save money to buy things in queensbay)..muahaha..

then Sunday went to Disted go register, then the lady said the intake is on 16th June and not 9th June..I almost shout..WAT??? but then I just gave a humble okay look..don't wanna scare her off..who knows her might be my lecturer..then I had practically a boring day driving to my aunt's house..they have that makan kinda thing for her being pregnant, her baby might be jumping in her stomach..(sorry the baby is suppose to be in another place in the body, but then I forget the biology term of it) oh no..I'm getting stupid..and the baby (not the correct term for an unborn living thing) might be coming out on 9th June..haha..

this week, I think need to do lots of cleaning up my mess before I leave to Penang..again and once again, I really hate to stay with my gparents..sighs but what to do..shall find a part time job in gurney or somewhere around..so most of the time I can be out of the house..and my second house will be that fishy's house..haha..I'm so gonna pity her housemate/roomate..I shall rock and roll in that house..muahaha..but then I will find my evil way to drive back to my house at least 2 -3 times a week..*irwin is going insane*

and this week I can't wait for something, hope it happens..pls my dear friends, do help me..I think DEV understand what is it..haha..if he don't I'm gonna cut his salary.

till then, emo-ing

mwaxx

p/s- i love you

me just going insane..picture by cha cha diva benjamin..