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I am so officially sad and so fucked up emoing, I really don't know why is this happening now to me. I thought I will stop being emo. I did stop being emo, I was so happy till 10 pm, but then the fucking emo tsunami just attacked me in a sudden. Maybe just because I'm actually leaving the band for real, and the most thing I miss in band is Pn Tan. Don't get me wrong but then I just love that woman, she is so special to me. The best mother, teacher and friend goes to her.

She was not only my band teacher but then something more than that, she was my friend and losing a friend because I'm leaving the school is so fucking thing. I just can't stand it..I cried in the car while driving back home just now. Is so not me k..I waited for everyone to leave and it was so hard to leave behind the things I love the most. I waited for her to leave and finally I drove back. I really wanted to go to school and help things out but I was scare that I will burst out in tears. So I just drive back home and I really din't want to go back home.

And I wanted to do something before I go back but then...haiz, is just not happening. Why is it so hard for you to understand me? I really want a chance to be with you.(definately not refering to Pn Tan)..is just someone whom I know, I really wanted to go out alone but then there is just disturbtion everywhere. You just make me cry now cause I really want you. Hmm, I think I had enough of talking. I really hope some angels could just help me..

till then, crying

p/s- I love you..

Posting

okie, I posting something today cause people needs update from me. So lets start the posting, so on monday I can't remember what I did..went to jit sin ind kut..well who cares, then on Tuesday...muahaha, I bought the protein milk already, muahaha..it's so damn expensive k..such a bomb fell in my wallet, anyways I had to for the sake of my body..(I'm listening to "touch my body" now), haha...
I started my so called new diet since wednesday
- no missing breakfast
- drink protein milk everyday
- no missing meals
- no junk food..fine, I ate alot of chocolate for the past two days..my father's fault buy so many chocolate from Thailand.
- no eating late meals
- drink lots of water
- and finally no late meals..
(GOD BLESS)

went for so called shopping on tuesday, but then steven kor was not working..berpeluhnya..he is so dongkoi..then I go reject shop wanna buy clothes..name ni Reject Shop..but then the price is blood sucking..and my bad cannot find any nice clothes that fits me..all also so big like giant wear ni..

then wed nite I wanted to overnite in school so badly..thanks to that c y vernn and vimal..ngek ngek..cannot stay d..not their fault also..
that c y vernn dunno to drive manual car, vimal..err..i inform him late..lolx, but then at least I was there at nite time..hurray..

then come back home also so damn tired...straight go sleep d..that devil sms me at 12.46 a.m...ppl sleeping lar wei..so I din reply her until now..sorry k..reply u next time..then today morning wake up so early somemore, menderakan badan dan minda saja..but then no complaints cause I'm happy to help Mdm Tan and not the band..haha..

and the biggest happening today was I was given the honour to become the Master, so practically when I am a master, I certainly do have slaves, so I have my slave list somewhere...my first slave is VIMALDEV>.<..he is such a notty slave, I think I have to chain him up like the old time slaves..but then I'm not a horrible vegetable master, I let him bitch around (socialize), so who ever interested in becoming my slaves, pls do call me. I currently cannot find any photos of my slaves since my hp is dying..lolx..aiya I lazy wanna type d..

till then, mwaxx..

and p/s:- ppl out there, who ever wants to please my heart, pls do come for hsbmbb concert, remember to pls ur master's heart, if not I sure torture you..beware..

Feel like doing it

ola..I'm here lazying around doing nothing..okie, I got alot of work to do but then just pure lazy to do something..and I just drop by to say

I

Feel

Like

Blogging

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Then

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Pure

Lazy

till then, mwaxx

Month Of May

okie it is a weird title again, but it's okay..since I'm doing a short post(maybe).

So basically my life is running in a normal boredom routine, nothing can be done about it, unless, someone who is kind enough to help me change it. Thanks anyway..not interested to change it..

Ermm, friday, saturday and sunday was most probably EVILNESS DAY, cause I practically fought with my mom like World War 3..mums are really big fighters, suck my life for 3 days..but worst to say, I don't remember what we were fighting for..anyways..

Irwin says :- The more you fight, the more you fall in love..(remember that)

In the ever happy-ending, I and mum got together and started fighting with my sister, we certainly got something in common, we make up a good team..muahaha..

Went to band on friday, in the very beginning it was so pain in my ass to watch them, but then after bitching (which actually means 'correct them' in the band term), I was very happy that finally things were going on the right track..

Saturday, I decide to skip band cause I was practically tired the whole day, I spend time day dreaming and sleeping..and there comes Sunday..

Sunday = my rest day..but then in my life I got 7 days rest..so I'm not gonna waste my Sunday doing nothing..So I went for jogging and hiking, I freaking relaxed after I did that..my stress-free drugs, and sad thing was when I jog, I didn't felt tired, I hiked, and was not tired at all, but when I came down, it was like "yor allah", my ass and legs were killing me, cause the muscles where pumped up to the max..and hiking up the hill was not bad either cause I hiked to the top in 21 mins, but my best time was 15 mins..you gays can't beat that..I was more like running up the hill..muahaha..

and there comes monday, when to band, everything was set in place and people are doing their work. It is good to see them work and give a break to teacher, and talking about teacher, I'm currently chatting with my teacher, isn't that xxx-tra cool to have your teacher on the internet to chat with you..(Pn Tan rocks)..

currently- Irwin is so damn tired cause I drove from BM to my house in a hot weather, days are getting hotter, so does Irwin *winks*.. and missing someone cause my day-dreaming session was cut short, anyways I'm not gonna bitch about it..

- irwin wants money to buy protein bars and milk..so he can get sexy and freaking hot..and needs a fine tanning..(my beach body dream), he needs money to buy shoes, clothes and instruments, and of course high-tech gadgets, conclusion = irwin needs to get richer by 1 million dollars

so it is month of may, so many ppl birthday..wish everyone happy bday..

edwin (21 may) & fara (22 may)

jac (24 may)

then got somemore,

miss savi (28 may)..others r..if i forget..sorry lor..i will check friendster again..happy birthday may babies..

till then..mwaxx

I got tagged

so practically i got tagged..so I will do it..muahaha

TagTag 8 people in your links list at the end of the post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
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1.What do you want the most now?

let me see..all the things which i dream for?? can't think of any rite now..but I want something so badly which I can't really tell out..God knows wat I want..=)

2. What do you want to be when you grow up?

settle down somewhere in my hometown (australia of course) and a happy family and of course I want to be bloody rich..muahaha

3. What would you do if you've lose everything in one shot?

err..get back everything in the next shot..lols..

4. What are you afraid to lose now?

Currently nothing..since I got nothing to lose now..except my precious life...dun take it..

5. Do you believe in being in love forever?

well yes for being in love forever..but then with the same person..i got no comment..

6. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?

actually I did..and the side effects are not so good..so better know them first..

7. What would you do when you're feeling down and depressed?

eat and talk with someone..and more eating and more sleeping..so I can forget wat happened

8. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

erhmm..I don't set requirements..just be who you are..but then must be hot and sexy..that is for sure..haha

9. Which type of person do you hate the most?

erhm..I normally don't hate ppl..even I do, only for short period nia..luv everyone..

10. Do you cherish every single of your friendships?

of course..they run half of my life..haha

11. Do you believe in God?

I pray to Him always..and of course I believe Him..

12. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

errhmm..practically everything is important..but there are certain things which are very important..God, family and friends..(not to forget the technology)

13. Do you find it necessary for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

maybe for now..but I dunno wat I want in future..I will leave it to the time

14. What do you want your friends to be like?

behave like a friend..and of course some behave like bitches..very they are bitches whom I call friend..bitching rocks with you guys..haha

15. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

erhmm..up to them to decide..but I will be there for you guys..call me anytime..0174504758..lol

16. If you can have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?

erhmm..alot..cannot actually tell in public..

17. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?

errhmm..I prefer to be alone..I'm not that person who cry out loud..haha

18. Would you die in order to save the ones you love?

erhmm..depends on how I die..but I will surely save them..no doubts

19. Would you kill in order to save the ones you love?

Killing is never easy for me..but to save..I might consider to push them into coma..better than killing

20. If you have a chance to change the past, what would you change?

alot..and alot and of course alot..

* * * * *Here's the list of people I'd like to tag:
1. dave
2. jac
3. fishy
4. devil
5. vern
6. aemus
7. daphne
8. ash

Updating

okie..my titles nowdays are just getting xtra weird..it is so hard to squeeze out a title...duh..*bang my head on the wall*..actually I did not wanted to update the blog cause I felt pure lazy typing it out..*irwin wish that was voice blogging* I could talk the whole day to the computer..muahaha...wat happened few days ago??

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I can't really remember..but I know I cancelled my outing with chui seng on sat..I watched what happened in vegas...n of course I remember eating lots n lots of food..Last week kut was bro ash's bday..so went out to sunway to eat and of course keep ourselves updated..

at least I can pose some pics here..muahaha...

sick in the ass..

In Vain..

Oh no.....

SWtS....

~looking at this pictures..I look damn old lar wei..or just ash is a bad photographer...

fast forward to yesterday...I went for jogging..kinda lame to jog around after so long..it was so fcuk..my bloody hell stamina was like sotong ni..kecewa sungguh..I can't really run 2 full rounds..was so damn tired after the first round..

I NEED TO WORKOUT

and so sad case is my sport shoes is getting smaller..err...the other way round..my foot is getting bigger..haha..so add another item in my *things to buy* list..haha.

> a new adidas/ nike sport shoes..actually running shoes..haha

and guess wat..I felt like LAUGHING OUT LOUD seeing our fellow MALAYSIANS doing their evening exercise..

1) lame handsome guys in ugly sports outfit walking around like miss J Alexander..so GAYiss..

2) so hot old woman in sexy sport outfit gossiping while jogging..cannot tahan lar..they voice so loud that almost everyone can listen wat they r gossip about..

3) lame ass wanita bumiputera coming to the park to have their sesi dating dan perkelahan..at least they shud come in t-shirt n jeans is acceptable..they come in those glamouress baju kurung n high heels..it is extra shittening..to have them walking around the park cause they end up blocking the joggers path..they walk as if their bf or husband own the park..n me being a fashion living legend icon n bla bla..they do the "catwalk" on the path..like lembu nyanyuk searching the way back home

LISTEN LADIES..my grandmother walk the runway better than you do with ur high heels..duh..

4) malaysians actually are real idiots cause..I actually noticed a guy n his friends who r not in great shape happen to run around the park sampai berpeluh peluh..then they go out of the park..n eat laksa n other crap..

WAT IS THE FCUKING POINT YOU ARE RUNNING FOR???

I actually just can't help telling this cause you fcuking lazy ass malaysians..work your body out pls..including me cause before I started my run..I realize from 4 packs..i tinggal 3 packs ni..

2 LARGE BREAST

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1 ROUND TUMMY

this shows I got abit fatter in the tummy area but then my fcuking weight still remains the same which is 48.5 kg..=.=..I'm seriously getting the milk protein even it creates a big fire hole in my wallet..gosh I need to have those beach-body..

*drools**

till then..mwaxxx

Title-less

okies..my title sounds extra weird..but it's okie...nothing here going so perfectly...muahaha..So my last post was a day before Mother's Day..so baked the cake and it turn out less perfect..but still edible..lols..everyone was like "irwin u bake cake so nice..wow..bake for my birthday also.."I was like..DUH..SHOO...can't really upload pic nowdays cause of my handphone..cannot connect to the computer..lost the connecting wire..duh..have about 30++ pics in it..new 1..=.=..will get a bluetooth device soon..till then wait lar..
so catching up the latest events which is so "happening" in my life..=.= got kicked out from the goverment scholarship...

LISTEN MALAYSIAN GOVERNMENT!!!

I'M SO GONNA BE AUSTRALIA CITIZEN..

MALAYSIA = BIGGEST BRAIN DRAIN IN THE WORLD

at least..vimaldev got through this..happy for him..

so final decision..doing that a'lvl n flying to australia a.s.a.p..ah joo wait for me there..muahaha..and yeah..i had a pimple on my back..near the shoulder there..but then i din't know it was a pimple until I complaint it is so painful to my mum..and she was "U GOT A PIMPLE!!!" as if I won jackpot or something..duh..okla..I kinda have limited pimples on my face or body..cause my face u know lar..extra clean n smooth..lols..so when my mum started pressing that digusting thing..i began to shout as if I had an orgasm..yor allah..the last thing I shout was..I wanna go see doctor..operate that thing out..and my maid burst out laughing like gila babi..people.. that thing was painful..I can't even sit straight the whole day..cannot sleep properly also..kesian me..

last but not least I need few important things to be bought this year..

1) a new handphone

2) an alto sax (not so urgent)

3) a new lappie

4) a violin

5) lots n lots of clothes..i kekurangan clothes now..lalala

and today is 14th May 2008..so it is BROTHER ASHWINEE'S BIRTHDAY

so let's sing her a birthday song

Happy Birthday to Brother..

Happy Birthday to Ashivinee...

Happy Birthday to Manivel..

Happy Birthday to you...

-irwin-

Random

Yea..it's just a random post today..felt so bored..I had so many plans today but then I shud say all tak jadi..okie except 1..I worked on the internet stuff again..and ooyeah..I finally got it connected..but then I still need some kind of telecom card to make it work on normal TVs..leceh betul..I plan to get it connected since I already got internet in the computer..(waste money sia)

So basically I had my normal routine..and I plan to change it abit..

1) exercise in the morning - din't happen cause I woke up late and was late for my drama..so cancel the morning exercise..=.=

2) have my breakfast - din't happen too cause I bathe n brush teeth at 11 sumthing..It was already time for lunch..duh..

3) to watch a movie - din happen too cause I was chatting with an unknown person..waste time ni..most probably that person dun even know english..haiz..

4) to go for evening walk or exercise - tak jadi also cause I was too lazy to go out..instead I plan to cycle around..well..lazy ass like me very hard to go out..end up I played bubbles until now..duh..so addicted to the bubbles..I played until lvl 3 d know..so freaking hard to go through the dragon..dalah the dragon so long..some shoot out fire balls..always kena tembak mati..

5) i hate to teach tuition for small kids..especially my neighbour's kids..ish geram betul..(shoo)..I Plan to go out at nite so no need to teach the freaking free tuition..but then no1 teman me go out..sighs..

throwing all aside..well mother's day is coming like in 1 day time..and oh dear..I dunno wat to do or get for my mum..maklumlah I'm jobless now..so not much of money..muahaha..cheapest thing to do will be hug my mum n wish her Happy Mom's Day..but then cannot..I did that last year d..
well maybe cook her dinner..err...not good idea cause sunday = rest day..well I'm taking rest the whole week..anyway..final plan..going to bake a cake..and write on the cake happy mother's day..if the cake turn out horrible..gonna let her cut it..sing n bla bla..then the cake goes to the cats and dogs outside..let them celebrate mother cats and dog day..muahaha..such a evil me..

till then I lapar d..I guess I have to go prepare dinner and think of a evil plan to escape out of the house..

BORED

extremly bored..so I end up blogging crap now..U heard me

C-R-A-P...

miss the movie yesterday with MC and the gang because of communication problem..I mean MAXIS line was not functioning at its best..duh..she send sms at 12 sumthing..but I receive it at 4.30 p.m...so duh..then nite I din do anything except watching Gossip Girl and CSI Miami..I wonder why they dun have Gossip Guy..=.=..cause GUYS dun gossip..lols..make sense but it is so untrue..actually guys gossip more than girls..

anyway..I'm proud to say I got an offer to continue my tertiary study..U guys will be shocked cause I GOT...

tawaran ke TINGKATAN 6..got the rainbowed TAHNIAH somemore..I dunno want to cry or laugh my ass off..cannot tahan stay at home d..

I'm terribly bored..~~~

till then..

Fun Tuesday

haha..fun tuesday??? not really fun..but was nice..hmm..wat I did??



woke up around 8 sumthing..to see the time was 8..then sleep back =.=



up at 10.20 and was like wtf..i miss 20 mins of my drama time..run down like shit to on the TV..saw Devil's sms..then wanna reply it..mana tau got no line..i was like swt...the network coverage today was super low..haiz..(devil's mum is in hospital and she will be okies..)



then around 11 sumthing..my mum call me to be the driver for my gparents to sunway..i was like haiyo yo..i so tired lar..haha..but then I still drive my lazy ass all over to sunway..then they finish up their stuff...wait for them quite long also..



the stupid thing was..I din put kupon for the car where I park..somehow when I was seeing outside..mana tau got the MPSP ppl writing summon for the car which din put coupon..I run like shit ni go find shop to buy that coupon..



SO LAME>.<..ish



then later send them home d..hehe



Devil said the plan was on..so again had to bring my LAZY ASS to pacific...she sms say faster lar..then I reply say raining..mana tau she shoot me back say U R DRIVING..*berpeluh* then reach pacific..go micky wonderland straight..the shop was like kekurangan barang..so LAME..not many choice..I wanted to buy the piggie stuff for Devil..but then my wallet said OUCH..so I bought the small piggie for her..



the go starbucks see devil n bri sit like pengemis...=.=...later bri went with her bf..then DEVIL belanja me STARBUCKS..hehe..we talk talk and talk..near us got 2 indian guys keep on staring at us..the otherside pula got 2 chinese lady stare at us..i was like *peluh again..but then the devil was so busy talking..i dun think she realize it..we started talking about gay, pondan and bla bla..not forgetting bangla and stuff..haha..somemore talk so loud..ish ish..then talk talk so long..wanted to go back d..



I follow devil go to taman mariksa..or watever it is..mana tau I know that taman..it was debbie 1 taman..lols..but the worst thing is..devil lead the way..man I tell u..she is 1 slow driver..she drive like aunty like that..the car infront press break..and she will press brake also..(the funny thing is the car is like 100m infront...)*berpeluh..I can sleep follow her..then she keep on changing the lane..left right left right..lolx..



after taman mariksa..she drive back to her place..I ronda ronda the taman then wanted to go back..mana tau I saw the aunty driving so slow..she went about 5 mins earlier than me but then I get to drive behind her again..later follow her till Sungai Rambai there then I drive back home..



WAT A DRIVER U R DEVIL..nyanyuk..



the go back n want to on the internet..again no line..swts..later call my father to check the line..suddenly got pula..haha..so here I am blogging..keke..



Later gonna watch

~Ugly Betty

~Desprate Housewives

~Las Vegas

~Terminator, the Sarah Connor 1



till then muaxx..



next outing will be the PAINTBALL..hehe..devil faster find ppl and the place..haha

speechless

err..I actually dunno wat to write here..so just updating it so it won't be DEAD..haha..

so practically nothing is so happening around me or with me..just an important memo..

I AM SICK!~!~!~

okie..trying not to be so dramatic..but then heck..I'm like so sick for about a week..

U HEARD ME..

A WEEK!!!

so let's see wat I did since last monday.

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NOTHING..(great)

but then on friday I worked on the processor..which is a good thing..but bad thing to work on while I'm sick..well who cares..so work on it for about 30 mins like that..but then nothing happen also..I was like WTF..went n charge it again..then work on it for another 30 mins..the result was...WTF..sighs..nvm I shall work on it other days..if not throw that into the bin..

well on Saturday..I was too sick that I forgot wat I did..Interesting huh??

Sunday was like sunday..some TV and talking..err.I did my hair..it was like..lalala..no comments on it..

Today = Monday..wat I did..= nothing..

Tomorrow is Tuesday..wat I'm gonna do..well..maybe go out with the DEVIL..since she needs to belanja me STARBUCKS..

anyway so many of my friend are going to study..far far away..leaving me..ngek ngek

Chui Seng is going to Kampar..(so so so gonna miss him)..good thing Kampar is developed..I thought Kampar was an estet with forest surrounding it..phew..Chui Seng won't come back like orang hutan..

Devil is going to PJ..(cannot bully her d)

Ee Theng is going to Gopeng

Nair, Syadisy, Hasbullah, Izwan are going to matriks..somewhere

ME??? oh dear..I dunno where I'm going also..

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I will be in Penang ni lar..no worries..phew

till then bye bye..